Time to Let GO....

Time to let go of something that once was real. You screwed up your life and fucked up and all you were doing was fighting for the one you love. It back fired.....everyone sees you as some crazy lunatic. Your image has been corrupted. You never thought you'd be screwed over by people that you thought were you friends. They might have not done it literally, but they did mentally. its so sad that no one especially the man i love believe in what i feel or fight for me. I'm wearing my self out....i'm suffocating myself, cuz all i am doing is fighting and fighting for something that made me soo freaking happy and i made that some one happy too. Its over now, time to start life from scratch....with the people that care most about me, and accept me for who i am, and don't judge me for my flaws. I know you care, but you won't admit it. To tough to just let go. Life is short, if you keep goin the way you going about women, you'll never end up happy with any one..... you'll never find anyone that was willing to fight even if it made my life a mess.....all i wanted was to be seen, a chance, to show that i can be better and willing to adjust. I knew i need to talk and make things right. you didn't even give me room to grow, you didn't believe or have faith......you don't even know what it means to be in love or fight because you have never done it.....i hope one day you'll realize i was the one for you, and you'll stop judging my flaws and accept me for who i am. Your blinded by anger and frustration. Its not all about me....i was fighting for us....i'm not the smartest one out of the bunch, but my heart is......i never wanted to force you to do anything, and i did listen, you just believed i didn't....i know you have a warm caring heart, i just wish you would show it....i will never ever understand....why you became this way, because all i did was fight....because I love you.....and you lightened up my day.....i just wish you'd feel the same....and try to see my point of view, when all your doing is looking at yours and what you think...and believe me i tried seeing your side....i tried revaluating ur thinkng process....it still didnt' define why? and what reasons....i just wish you'd talk to me...but its time to let go ..... i know you never will talk to me because you don't understand why i was fighting for you in the first place.......even if it was the wrong way, i still fought....just wish you'd see the good in me and not look at my flaws....and not cared what your friends think....but i can't change what you think or ur ways.....ur as stubborn as i am...i am blinded by love, that is why i tried fighting so hard...and it got me screwed over in the end....cuz i give so much, and you can't appreciate or see that...you just look at what i did wrong.... that is what hurts the most.....because you can't see what i really feel about you.....its a lost cause though, you built up an immunity, and there was no reason for you too...good bye and i will always love you.....all i can do is hope that one day u'll see my side and not be so caught up on what i did wrong....

I'm Sorry

You Promised...

You promised me the sky you promised me the world, but instead I got a piece of dirt. This dirt just shows me how u faked caring for me and pretended to love me. You portrayed yourself as an evil villan that can care less about the person you hurt and you do not blame yourself one bit because you only thought of making you happy. If you meant that you loved me you would kept your word and given me the sky and the world

Someone who Completes you...

When u find some one that completes u want to hold on to it with your dearest life. Yes you are complete as yourself. Having that someone is a different completeness. It Is a wholeness and warmth you feel of being loved. Its. Just astare when you incomplete. You to not understand why that feeling is gone and you keep trying to figure out why. You are apauled by how the person that completed you decided to walk away. You were the one fighting and showing you are not going any where! You commite yourself because you knew it was right and you would be mislead if you were living a lie. You would ha e walked away a long time ago. You would not even have thought twice. You need a reality check! You need to snap out of it! But how? You can't because when you yourself know you have found your one true love you never let go. Yet it is said if it was true love you gotta let go sometimes to see if the would come back to you. Yet waiting is the hardest part. Wondering if they will ever appreciate you for who you are and respect you. Seems inevitable because it is obvious that they do not and you are wasting your time. This person will never ever realize and by the time they do it will be to late. They do not know how to work on a relationship so they run away. They find excuses to runaway and not focus. Called selfishness. It will be impossible to find a person. As committd as you were to that one person. Not many people with big huge hearts that are hopless romantics. You know you have things to work on but you did not even get aChance to. Feels like all these thoughts are a repitition and its an ongoing dillema. It pains you to replay certain memories and thoughts. You are scares to face that person bcuz you didn't do anything wrong and the designed a wall of rejection against you. You may be looking to deep into this and got everything wrong. If only you could talk to this person and stop this nonsense of childish being. It would make things so much better. How do u step up your game? How do you become a srltrong person? How do you fall so deep for someone? Get use to their touch, their skin? Does care? Or did he mean life with out you is in his best interest? Understood if you did somthing treachory but you did not. All you did was be there. So you are broken. Waiting for hope and some light, but do not hold your hopes up as you probably deserved getting the person you love rippedFrom under you. They never loved you yet they told you they did. It was false information. Yet they would not say it if they didn't mean it. What now? What do you do? All you can do is be patient. Nothing else. Yet it kills you because all you want is to feel their touch again and the one passionte kiss. You want to be held an never let go of.

Broken by Evanescence

Seether:

I wanted you to know thatI love the way you laugh.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away...

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome.

And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

Amy Lee:

The worst is over now And we can breathe again.

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away.

There's so much left to learn. And no one left to fight.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.

Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough.

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough.

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome.

And I don't feel right when you're gone away...

Cause I'm Broken when I'm lonesome.

And I don't feel right when you're gone...

You gone away, you don't feel me here anymore

Erased by Annie Lennox

I'm gonna put it all behind meLike nothing ever happened between us. Nothing ever took place between you and me...Yes, Nothin' ever happened. And if you see me walkin' down the street. I won't even recognise you. I'll just erase you from my memory. Put it all behind me. Because you are erased. All erased....

You'll be sittin' on someone else's couch. You'll be eatin' off a stranger's plate. Everything is gonna get wiped out. Like a new start. Like a brand new fresh clean slate .Well here I go remembering again. All the anger and the blame...People in glass houses shouldn't throw those stonesbut ... something just flew through my window pane.

My my my my ...

(oh mama did it touch you well?)

I'll be in a brand new pair of running shoes.And you'll be walking on down different street in a brand new suit and a fresh clean shirt. Makin' telephone calls...Keepin' in time with someone else's feetKeepin' in time with someone else's feet.

First Gift....

What's of Life....

What's of Life, when you don't have anyone. Yes, you have friends, family, but they can only be there so much for you. They can't complete your life, they can't run it for you. You can only tell them so much, but after the point, you can't anymore. You have no one to confide in, and it feels like your heart wants to explode. You meet people everyday, and you make relationships with some. Some people are just cruel, and some are the best people you will ever meet. You believe you find your self someone, you make an idea that this person is the one. Things are going so well, with ups and downs of course. As nothing is perfect. You find some one with so many similarities, traits, views on life. You learn to confide and mend a close relationship. In reality, you really do not know them. They hide things from you, or will not open up to you, as much as you try to get answers. As much as you want to be an adult and work things out. You can never get to close to anyone. You always have to watch your back, as people are selfish, they do things for themselves. Love is a strong word. Its different every time. Yet, you yourself knows when its the real thing. Does that someone know? Or did they pretend? Did they throw you away just because some thing was not right? No one will ever know, no one will ever understand? You will never know what goes on in their mind, you will never know the truth. All you will feel is loneliness, rejection, and never know why that one person left you.